Not Sure~

I was happy for a little while there.

Did you notice? But I’ll try and stay happy. No Actually I’ll try and stay happier!

Nothing has changed much. Now I’m going to try harder.

There are a million things that I’ll perfect because I hate myself at this point in time. But I can help but feel like it’s not really all my fault. Maybe it was.

Maybe I was the one that didn’t do the right thing.

In the end I was right. This could never be~ Whatever ‘this’ is –or was for that matter-

Now I’m left to sitting on the bus and forgetting to get off until I’m at the end of the line… It’s become comforting now though. So I continue to do it.

There are so many things that I warned you about that are now my fault. But they shouldn’t be just my fault. YOU didn’t listen to me when I warned you and me.

Now we’re in this mess and I’m oddly fine about it. I wish we could be friends again and just muck around and swear to ourselves that we’ll only ever be friends and if we start having deeper feelings for the other we have to stop it immediately. Then once we’re back to having normal mutual friendship feelings for each other we can continue.

This is so naïve of me~ Nothing really works like that. I try to work like that but most of the time people think I’m too conventional and end up disliking me.

Anyway, this silly drabble is going to be kept short.

Sorry for not putting up a proper post but I really needed to write this out.

Xoxo AFTVH