I would have liked to sit by my precious Yuki and write stories with tea.
Now that I'm sitting here sitting by Yuki, writing and scavenging for some tea bags, I realise what I want.
Though it's all mixed up. It would be nice if my 'want list' would suddenly put itself into order. It doesn't matter if it boys or school choices.
Just put yourself into order.
Quickly.
So them I know what to do with myself.
I'm so afraid of it all though~ How am I meant to continue if everyone and everything tells me that I wont make it?
Shouldn't people meant to encourage me? Not just say:
"You're crashing again... I don't think this time you'll pull through it."
Or
"You're fine! You've never had a problem in your life."
They both are two extremes. It's like in Donnie Darko... There isn't just black and white. The grey in between counts so much more sometimes.
Everything that helped stable myself is falling apart around me and I don't know how to help them.
